No baby yet, guys. Not that I expected the baby to show up on his or her due date, in fact, I always expected the opposite. Everyone knows that first time moms have to wait a week or so after their due date to meet their babes. So I never took the August 7 date for fact, so that I wouldn't be disappointed. But I was. Sorta.
As much as I've complained about pregnancy not being my favorite thing in the world, I've kinda gotten used to it. So even though I can barely walk around without my pelvis creaking, the alternative to having an inside baby is even more terrifying. An outside baby. That I'm responsible for. It's the strangest feeling, sitting around, waiting. Waiting for something to happen. Waiting for the thing that will change my life forever. Was that the baby stretching or was it a contraction? Was that a real contraction or a fake one? I have no idea what it's supposed to feel like. Is it gonna happen today? Tonight? Is my hair clean? Is my water gonna break? Can I get some sort of sign here?
Unfortunately, the last free weekends before Blinky shows up weren't filled with me-n-John adventures, or even last big date nights out. It's too hot out. My clothes don't fit anymore. I'm ready for a nap before the waitress can even drop the check off. I'm not too fun right now. So we wait together. Quality time, if you will. Catching up on Jersey Shore, Anthony Bourdain, Kill Bill movies...whatever's on. Eating yummy snacks like soft pretzels and chocolate milk so that if it happens soon, and I go on the all ice-chip diet, at least my last meal will have been a good one.
So here I wait, trying to treasure the lying on the couch time, just the two of us. And somehow, craving that moment when we know this thing's happening. The decision to call the doctor. The grabbing of the bags. The drive to the hospital. The labor. I know it's gonna suck but I want it anyway. The phone calls. The footprints. Those first moments that go by in a blur. The feedings. The visitors. The moment when it's no longer just the two of us. All of it. I want all of these things. In the meantime, I'll just take this one last nap.
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I've been thinking about you all week! Hope it happens soon!
I'm thinking good thoughts for you and your inside baby. :)
I went 41 weeks with both my kids. Be thankful. I am a newborn intensive care nurse and I work with TINY preemies all day. We are lucky to have our cervix's of steel. (That's what I said in my own head when ever I was SO sick of being pregnant.)
But it does suck to be huge with a baby that just doesn't want to come. It will all be worth it. Mean time enjoy your yummy snacks and Snookie time.
I just got chills reading this! Excited for you and thinking of you!
our jersey shore obsession started during the two weeks we waited for gobbles too!! (the series premiere was his due date)
you're doing exactly what you should be doing, watch tv, eat whatever you feel like, and relax with your hubs.
thinking about you!
i'm sure that's tough to wait out. but exciting too!
is it bad i spent last night eating chocolate and watching jersey shore too ... but i'm not pregnant??
best of luck - can't wait to see the post with a baby photo!
I watched Kill Bill yesterdee too. haha I didn't move off the couch all day and I don't have the excuse of having a baby in ma bellay. I can't wait to meet Master or Miss Blink. xoxo
Thinking of you!
beautifully written!
I can't wait to meet Blinky :+)
you are such a good writer! lol about the inside outside thing. I couldnt believe that they were going to let me leave the hospital with that tiny little outside baby
awww, I miss my bump....a lot!
Good luck with everything. I know it will be a blur, but it will be the most exciting blur of your life ;)
I'm just getting into my third trimester, so it's neat to hear how you're doing now that you're *almost* heading to the hospital. I can't even imagine the waiting yet! Hang in there! I'm sure it will all go by in a blur, as you said.
Teared up with that last thought, lady.
I turned to Todd the other night and said, "remember when it was just be and you? and then this little boy just showed up? and we MADE him? awesome, huh?"
I can't wait to meet him/her.
Hugs! I can't wait to read all about motherhood from you!
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